Friday, October 25, 2013

Bad hare day ;)

I told you about my shower "problems", I had one of these days yesterday. My hair was a mess, but I was going out to walk with dogs from the animal shelter, so this was my solution to this problem:

It's a simple scarf, which I pinned with bobby pins in front and behind the ears. All the rest is twisted around each other and secured with a hair tie!

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Get-up-early challenge day 3

Luckily I didn't call the challenge get-up-early-AND-GO-TO-THE-LiBRARY challenge! So today I had breakfast with my sister around 8, I got up! But my alarm clock was overheard so I was in no state to leave the house. I am at home and this morning I read a book about writing assignments... That works so well for me, because I get a lot of motivation from it! Afterwards it's like itching in my fingers to start ;) That is not a normal state of mine...
Now I have to leave for a lecture on church history and am in the same state as this morning... No, wait! I brushed my teeth ;)

I did it today! Yay!
I'm using my sisters computer and I found three pictures of me from 2010 which I will share now, just for the fun of it! We create a photobook for my grandparents every year as a christmas present. We show what we have done that year, so this is 2010:

I started to study and it really tired me. So I  constructed this, and my little brother took my picture

This is in Norway and I have no idea what the story is. We stood on these wooden ski with three persons, our feet in loops and we had to go as fast as possible. It was fun! When I look at this picture I also see my choice of clothes, I really like the colours and all, but today in Germany I would never wear a leggins with a top, I wear this top today and I wear trousers!!

This was a very new experience for me. It's in Norway as well, in the mountains. I think you can see how I enjoy it! But I remember that it took quite an effort to overcome my fears.

Have a great day! I have to run now....

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Get-up-early challenge day 2

Hello there!
It's 1.26 pm now, and I didn't live up to my goal today.

Bu let me first tell you about yesterday - it was awesome! I didn't do much of my assignment yesterday, I wrote my blogpost, checked out life on FB and what my email-account had for me. Not much, but the time ran away from me. I wanted to get some books from a special part of the library which didn't open before nine. At half past nine I went there and found five books dealing with the writing of assignments, which I took with me. Then I had a class about hinduism, it was crazy. All those strange words, which have no meaning to me (or the girl sitting beside me, so I wasn't the only one). In the end of this class I will know what they stand for, that's pretty amazing. It was the first time our class met, so we mostly talked about the run of the course and who will present what on which day. the class was supposed to take until 11.45, but at 11.04 we were done. I thought I'd start to read one of my new books before meeting my sister for lunch at 12.30, but life goes as it does. I stayed behind with these two really nice girls and we talked, and talked and laughed; I enjoyed it so much.
Lunch with my sister was a little strained, because the canteen was overflowing. so many new students and all the rest back from "vacation", so we went another place. Nice food, but a lot more expensive!
After that I went to my place to get some washing and vacuuming done.
In the evening there was a church service which attended with a friend. I really like the services in my university congregation. I feel at home there and afterwards there's always something social and food.
So yesterday was a great day for me, all he better cause today is not that awesome (as of yet).

I started to read in bed at about 10 I think, and got up at around 12. I read the "Game of Thrones" series, it is really intriguing. I have had breakfast and the washing machine is working on my and my sisters trousers... I have the books in front of me, and after this post, I will start to read. the thinnest first ;)
Later at 6.15 to 8.30 pm I will have a class about theological war rhetorics and after that I will go to the gospel choir with my sister.

Have a great day, and don't get worked up if you do not get all done. Nobody's perfect, just do your best. It is harder to get a better day tomorrow if you do not fret about it too much. Just think: Tomorrow will be better! And it will!

Monday, October 14, 2013

I did it!

Good morning dear friends!

This is day 1 of my get-up-early challenge. It is 8.42 am and I am sitting in the university library.
It was easier than expected to get up early, I feel that I am a morning person really, but with the hardship in getting up I am never in my true condition. I feel good!

It was cold outside, below 10° C, my fingers itch from warming up inside again. But honestly? I like the cold! And it's not freezing cold, only cold ;)

But after like 5 minutes on my bike I broke into a sweat, man, my body is not good with getting warm. I think my body works like this: It's very hot inside and my body is working hard to cool me down. When you touch me I am more likely to be cold than warm (I like it that way!). And when I do sports, my body gets even warmer and I do not feel so good.

How does your body warmth/cold work?

Thursday, October 10, 2013

The day after...

Everything that went bad yesterday turned good today!

I had a shower yesterday (whoop, whoop) and went about my day.

1. I wanted to meet my lecturer, because I am writing an assignment. On the internet it said, that she would be there for consultations wednesdays from 1-2 pm. When I was there I found a paper at her door saying: From NEXT week on, my consultation-hour will be wednesdays. Obviously she wasn't there.

2. I wanted to meet my sister for lunch. On Sunday we talked about it, and I felt it was a set date, but... well, it wasn't. So I was in the canteen, but she didn't show. When I called her, she'd had lunch already and was back at work.

3. I wore my new jeans, they have a new cut, straight leg, not slim fit. And they sagged! Like really bad! Bad I was at my parents after the canteen thing and had nothing to change into. I wore them all day...


1. I wrote an email to my lecturer yesterday and she answered this morning saying I could come by at 11.30 am if I could make it. I read that mail at 10.45, but because I had the shower yesterday I could skip that and not feel to bad or ugly.
I was in her office for 45 minutes, only 15 of them spent on my assignment, the rest was life and moving on. She shared lots from her life and I from mine; it felt really nice to be able to talk with her about stuff. I want to write my bachelor-thesis with her (even more now!)

2. I went to the jeans-shop and the lady was quite firm, that because I had worn it already he couldn't take it back. I was quite proud of myself, because I tend to cry very fast, and I felt them bubbling up, but I kept them under control (yeah!). She found a size smaller for me (all the while I was thinking: my budget doesn't stretch so far that I could buy the same jeans again, only another size), when she gave it to me, I wanted to say that. But she was faster ;) Said I should try this size and we would see what could be done. So I tried it on and it fit (it didn't fit 2 days ago!?!?). She looks at me saying like: "Yeah, this is the size you should be wearing... and I can't take the other back... But this is your size... Ok I'll do it." Wow, incredible!

3. I met my sister for lunch. She was earlier than I expected and called me while I was trying on the jeans. So I had to hurry a lot and she was already eating when I came, but we did it :)

Now I am at home, packing for a ten day "vacation". I'll be living with my sister at my parents house, because they are gone on real vacation... that way she and I will have some quality time together. The plan is, that I get up with her in the mornings and we have breakfast together, at 7.30 am (ridiculously early for my rythm, but I really am a morning person and feel better that way), at 8.00 am we'll leave the house. She'll go to work and I to the library to work on my assignment. We will have lunch together, afterwards a little more work. This rutine will help me a lot!

Friday, October 4, 2013

High five for friday!

Another week is gone and it's friday afternoon already! I link up with Lauren on this.

1. It's that time of the year! FALL! I really love fall, when it's getting colder again. We have an awesome start as well, because the sun is shining a lot. We're more used to rain here ;)

2. Last friday evening was my little brothers 25th birthdayparty. My sister and I we're wondering why he wanted to do it in the garden -- OUTSIDE! We would freeze to death! But no: He made a bonfire and it was quite warm.

3. On dunsay I was on a science day in a laboratory, with my little brother and sister. It's the place my big sister works, but due to sickness she couldn't come with us. But we met her at her home. We saw the fastest computer in Europe and viewed some simulations the scientists created with it. We needed 3D-glasses, my brother got the best one:

4. Two food related things:
On monday I was in the canteen with my sister and had this; it was great but I didn't even got half of it eaten...:

For a long time I have been dreaming of a perfect egg to breakfast. On wednesday I finally had it (two at once!):

5. Today I was for a looooooooong walk with my old flatmate and her doggie:

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Wednesday, October 2, 2013

I suffer from depression Part IV: Getting good at "failing"

 When dealing with depression I learned to get better and better at failing. Well, sometimes some things get done, maybe even gloriously. But most of the time, you do not get to do a lot. And it's hard to enjoy anything anyways.

Thing is: I am not perfect. In fact, nobody is.
I was a bookworm in my teens and I felt everyone was perfect, or at least better than I was.
Maybe I am a real looser regarding the shower or getting my days started and many other things; but I have a real BIG heart, I mean REAL BIG! I do not want to be bragging about anything concerning myself, but in my depression it is essential to always have to have something positive to set against all my failures.

While I was in my worst time of depression I learned to fail. To not drag myself deeper down than I already was.
If I didn't get anything done, even this or that I had planned. I'm working on not letting that define me. I am not what I do. Neither am I what I feel (this one is even harder).

This doesn't work out always. Not at all. Usually I set myself the limit of one day to really sink into that hole, but the day after is got to be better.

Part of this solution for me was the knowing that God loves me the way I am. That does in no way mean, that I couldn't get better. I could get a better ME. I am not supposed to be like any of the others I always wished to be. I wished to be someone else, someone stronger, with more self control (the list goes ooon), but I am not. I am ME. I am supposed to be me and I am loved the way I am.

The other parts of this series:
PART I: Why write this and Getting out of bed 
PART II: About my depression and the wave formation
Part III: Taking a shower

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Fall is on!

I love fall. I like when it's getting colder and I can put some more clothes on. My body enjoys the cold a lot more than the warm. But it can adjust, I was in France for 2 weeks this summer and after one and a half weeks my body started to feel more and more comfortable in the heat (around 28-33°C).
I wore this outfit on a café-date with some of my friends. I had a real good afternoon, they make me laugh and they just love me for who I am.

These two colours are my absolute favorite... I am a lover of pink and (almost) every shade of red, and green just fits to that perfectly.
I was reading Audreys Blog, it's about building a remixable wardrobe. She also had a series on How to build a wardrobe from scratch, and a part of it was: Choosing colors. I liked the idea with the complementary colors.. And because I already had a lot of pinks and reds, I just choose their complementary color: green. And it served me well in my shopping. Not that everything is always in this scheme, but it helps me to focus on what really is fitting good into my overall wardrobe.